I’m nervous! What an interesting sensation. I have been making some rather significant “branding” changes lately… I guess it’s more of an anti-branding thing. After 3.5 years of writing for ‘secular’ websites, I’m writing by new rules. I will no longer write for audiences where I have to be less than authentic about things that have changed my life.
Some people have referred to me as a complicated person. I guess that makes sense— I mean, have you met me? It’s not like you see Hollywood writing LifeTime movies about chicken farming cannabis patients who are also committed followers of Christ. 1 Star – ⭐️, do not recommend it. Hands down, least entertaining uses for weed. Isn’t “getting high” a sin?
See what I mean? Now you may have questions, or perhaps this isn’t so strange to you. I know it is to me. Whew! Not cannnnnnabis! If I write about that while writing about God, people will think—— oh. People will think about all kinds of things, and that’s finally something I am ready to accept.
When I came to cannabis therapy, I had not previously used it recreationally. I’m a DARE kid, I was never even offered drugs. I share this context to explain that I was opposed to trying cannabis, even when I was diagnosed with epilepsy. I was so opposed that I refused to try it until I was literally diagnosed allergic to most pharmaceuticals. I humbly admit that I judged this plant so harshly that I needed a literal sign from God to give it a try. He made my choice very simple.
Today I am not going to dive into the potentially lively conversation about Christians using cannabis, though I have many thoughts on this that I hope to share another day. The state of my health was devastating my family. I couldn’t be active. I was a stay at home mom who was enrolling her kids in school so they would be supervised while I rested in bed. My suffering was very real and biological, but the shadow I was living in was very very spiritual. We were under heavy spiritual attack. We were lonely. My children weren’t sleeping either. I would pace my house praying for relief and help. We reached out, but it felt like very few people could see the severity of the situation. I now understand that Satan prevented some of our loved ones from understanding how serious our situation was. I realize now that while Satan wanted us to feel fear, scarcity and isolation, God was still taking up my cause. When the Lord takes up your cause, you better gird your loins.
I learned that my intentions with a plant like cannabis truly mattered. I learned that the “cleanness of my hands” mattered to God. My vulnerability and trust in Him mattered. Cannabis may be the tool that helps me with my health, but I have never lost sight of the fact that He created it. He is facilitating my healing. Friends. There have to be godly ways to use God’s creation, he would never put His children in a no-win scenario. Last time I checked, ‘He gave us every tree and plant.’ We make plenty of mistakes— I mean, the first mistake ever made was literally with a tree in God’s own garden. We don’t have a flawless record with plants, I get it. But He sees our hearts.
Life is far too precious to numb it away in a haze… that goes for both euphoric plant medicines and traditional pharmaceuticals; if your medicine doesn’t give you life, it’s not medicine.
I’ll leave you with a passage that truly helped me understand the season I was in when I was led to cannabis therapy. About that “gird your loin” reference… if you aren’t familiar, it’s actually a process of making your tunic into a belt. If you were about to do battle, you would want to be agile and quick. Every time I read Psalm 18, I imagine the smoke, the ground shaking, the arrows… if I were there, I know I would cower. But verse 32 says “it is God who girdeth me with strength and maketh my way perfect.” He readies me. He is where my strength comes from— including my physical healing. How far does He go for His children when we cry out to Him?
1 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.
2 The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
3 I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
4 The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid.
5 The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me.
6 In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
7 Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.
8 There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mouth devoured: coals were kindled by it.
9 He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.
10 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.
12 At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire.
13 The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire.
14 Yea, he sent out his arrows, and scattered them; and he shot out lightnings, and discomfited them.
15 Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.
16 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.
17 He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.
18 They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay.
19 He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, because he delighted in me.
20 The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me.
21 For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.
22 For all his judgments were before me, and I did not put away his statutes from me.
23 I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity.
24 Therefore hath the Lord recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight.
25 With the merciful thou wilt shew thyself merciful; with an upright man thou wilt shew thyself upright;
26 With the pure thou wilt shew thyself pure; and with the froward thou wilt shew thyself froward.
27 For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks.
28 For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness.
29 For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall.
30 As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.
31 For who is God save the Lord? or who is a rock save our God?
32 It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.
33 He maketh my feet like hinds’ feet, and setteth me upon my high places.
34 He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms.
35 Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great.
36 Thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that my feet did not slip.
37 I have pursued mine enemies, and overtaken them: neither did I turn again till they were consumed.
38 I have wounded them that they were not able to rise: they are fallen under my feet.
39 For thou hast girded me with strength unto the battle: thou hast subdued under me those that rose up against me.
40 Thou hast also given me the necks of mine enemies; that I might destroy them that hate me.
41 They cried, but there was none to save them: even unto the Lord, but he answered them not.
42 Then did I beat them small as the dust before the wind: I did cast them out as the dirt in the streets.
43 Thou hast delivered me from the strivings of the people; and thou hast made me the head of the heathen: a people whom I have not known shall serve me.
44 As soon as they hear of me, they shall obey me: the strangers shall submit themselves unto me.
45 The strangers shall fade away, and be afraid out of their close places.
46 The Lord liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted.
47 It is God that avengeth me, and subdueth the people under me.
48 He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man.
49 Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O Lord, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.
50 Great deliverance giveth he to his king; and sheweth mercy to his anointed, to David, and to his seed for evermore.